Man. I can't bring myself to ask my dad to let me go to the BBQ. It's like, I'm afraid he's going to reject what I say. I really need to go. It's like, I NEED to go. It's not a want, it's a need. I have to go or I swear I will just go stark raving mad. Hmmmm......

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

I have to go for tuition later.
Don't wanna go...........*throws tantrum*

Let me tell you what my mom thinks.
She thinks that the word hypocritical cam from a hippo that was once critical.
Because when you can't achieve something, you become critical.
Then because it couldn't fit into the crates ( as in Hippocrates' oath, the one docs have to take upon graduation)it became critical of everything, especially the oath.
Cranky huh? It's like, my mom said that and the whole family sitting at the dinner table spent about five minutes laughing, including her. Of course my mom's not stupid, she's got like, a million degrees, but she loves to joke a lot. So sometimes it's kind of hard to tell when she's joking and when she's not.

I suppose i shall go and play some lame game on the Internet now. I don't really like the format Blogger is in now, but a successful person is able to adjust to any circumstances. Haha, although I'm not exactly what you would call a remotely successful person.

I'll be back.....later to continue...